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In response to
"Ty, you okay! -- nm"
by
David
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And the other thing.
Posted by
ty97
May 13 '11, 00:28
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I'm 35. I should be way over this. Yet, there are huge barrier that stand in front of me.
And I hate those barriers, for multiple reason.
1. Because they are trite, repititive, and unremarkable.
2. Because everone on this world is over the 'whoa-is-me' gay storyline.
So I don't know why, to this day, part of me contemplates why is would be better, right now. to die than the alternative That won't happen because I have strong, good friend like JackDawson, but where the buck does this self-hate come-from?
Past that? I don't know there idiocy came from. I've come close to deleting this entire post 10 times, but decided maybe, no matter how stupid and mathematic it is, may need it.
Let me preface this: Regardless of the above, I am not mentally challenged. I am human an fearless, but I am 'normal'. I may be utterly embarrassed by this post and never want to talk to any of you about it in the future, and ask for respect to that.
So there it is. Mock it, love, it, ignore it. Call it pathetic if you want. I'm 35 and this is we. Take it as you will.
And yes I will regret this post in the morning but fuck it, I apparently have a hurtle I still need to cross. ignore that at your will.
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