Let me clarify...a little more
Posted by
Capstern
Sep 2 '11, 10:24
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What I ever posted was not to watch you scurry. It was so solicit really reaction and information. The first 2 years I was here I was treated more like a friend or a puppy and that was nice.
Somewhere along the way I gaffed a post and pissed a couple of people off and became more of a running gag or a joke.
I decided instead of trying to fight the mob mentality I would just run with it. Not in a troll way but just accepting that my new role wasnt the same as the old.
Being the hapless butt of the jokes and bitchy people just became part of how it was here and I accepted that.
I started to try to be a little less filtered. A little more open and closed at the same time.
People who know me wouldnt recognize this as me, but maybe the part of me when I am darker and angry.
I tried once to come back and just be Dave (normal) and people who hadnt seen me in 2 years POUNDED me and so I guess I felt like I could never come back from the place I put myself.
So this is more of a mea cupla on my part. I should have just waited it out but well I have always been the butt of jokes with friends and family and I guess it sorta felt familyish.
I may have to reinvent myself I dont know, and if anyone feel decieved or hurt sorry but I never wanted to expose Dave to some of the rampant abuse that does happen here. So maybe it wasnt a persona but more of a suit of armor.
I love this place I love the collective consciousness and it has guided me many times but at a low point in your life its hard to just shed the armor and try to get people to accept the real you and maybe thats not possible
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