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Long cathartic ramble: In something that probably shouldn't surprise me, WoW-girl decided to get back together with jerky know-it-all kid.

It happened a few weeks ago, supposedly. She didn't tell me until Sunday, when I found out accidentally via a mutual friend. When I asked her about it point blank, she was just "we're not back together, we're just talking more, that's it" so I read her the riot act about things i'd noticed over the last two weeks (plus what I was just told by the friend) and she confessed. She apologized for how I found out and said she wanted to tell me on her own, as she knows I wouldn't really be that thrilled about it. "I waited to tell you because I wanted you to see that I could still be me while i'm with J. I know there was a lot of bullshit before."

He's quit WoW and she claims that he's only a jerk in game because he says he needs to keep up the image of his established character and he's a much different person when not playing. She says that the relationship is going much better than the last time and him not playing WoW is probably why.

As for the ex-boyfriend, whom she still lives with, she's more of a roommate now, as the house they (he) bought, which was ostensibly for the two of them to start the next part of their lives, now also contains his brother, their mutual friend and now his cousin. the only thing keeping her there is a lack of job. She did give the ultimatum of her or them, and he didn't pick her. He's an okay guy, i'd much rather see him with her than the kid (if it can't be me), but I want to smack the shit out of him for losing her like this.

We had a very long talk about it the other night, and I'm not mad, just surprised and disappointed. And also somewhat relieved that she still wants to speak to me. I was convinced she hated me and that J. had influenced that opinion in her, because he didn't like me (and rubbed their relationship in my face regularly, which she noticed and did not like).

I will always have reservations about the kid (I find it hard to believe he can contain the "if you're not doing it my way, you're doing it wrong and are a horrible person for it" persona into just the game) but god dammit she's been noticeably happier over the last few weeks.

I know I shouldn't care about this or her as much as I still do and I expect a few of you to bitch at me because of this, but I've really never loved anyone as much as I loved her. I'm mostly just frustrated that my timing sucked. We had our flirtiest phase (complete with confessions of, um, yes, love) when she was still hoping it would work out with the ex-boyfriend, then six months later I'm friend-zoned and the kid just swoops in when their relationship finally collapses. I win at timing.


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