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boston.com Love Letters: I Ruined Our Great Relationship

Meredith,

I am going through the most severe heartbreak of my life. My ex-boyfriend and I were together about a year and a half when he decided that he wanted to break up. I am responsible for the demise of our relationship.

There was no cheating or lying involved. At that time I was going through some major problems at work and was overly stressed, and I did not communicate how stressed I was. I guess I needed a punching bag, so I took it out on him. I started fights and put him down, saying that everything he was doing did not meet my standards. I stopped appreciating him and took him for granted and became needy. Basically, I did everything that you are not supposed to do.

I feel horrible and it tears my heart apart, the way I acted towards him. A day does not pass by that I do not think of him and grieve our relationship. My behavior started only two months prior to breaking up. We had an amazing relationship prior to that, as he would say, "I was the love of his life." I have made a lot of changes in my life and have been in therapy. I have apologized to him and received a kind email just stating that we have to move on. We have not communicated for about four months. I am still in love with him; he was the ONE.

I would love to have him back in my life but I do not know how that is possible. After the breakup, I never called him or begged him to take me back. How do I go about trying to reach out to him again? I love him very much.

� Want Him Back, Washington D.C



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