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The happiest of the happy and the saddest of the sad - what's up with Pippy? Please dont' mention on FB.

1st the happiest of the HAPPY! HAPPY!

I gave up a little girl for adoption 21 years ago. After attempts to find her and I never could, she sent me a letter and photos and reached out. We have been texting non stop, we met for dinner and ya'll SHE IS AWESOME!! smart, tall, funny, mature for her age. She had/has a great life, has no animosity - just wanted some answers. My heart is so happy!! I've been walking around like Julie Andrews in Sound of Music. I told Roo last night. She knew about her ( it was never a secret) and she was happy and now they are talking. More dinners are planned - a FUTUREconcert. I am so glad she had the life I wanted her to have and I knew I couldn't give her.

now the saddest part of my life:
my mother has Alzheimer's/dementia/emphasyemza. I am watching the strong, independent, smart woman I knew disappear before my eyes. My step dad is her caretaker and he is struggling. She fights us on pretty much everything regarding her well being. Some of that is the disease, some of its not. I know they say we should take care of our parents ( and I believe that) but they never say sometimes they won't let us. I know its part of life - circle of life and such but it doesn't make it any easier- but it sucks so bad and I can't deal with the sadness. But yet I have to - things have to be handled. I know from being on ST - others have gone through losing a parent, are going through it even now. We all go through it at some point. There is no feeling like this one.

so the emotional whiplash is draining but I'll the take the happy to balance out the sad. I think that is what the universe is trying to say to me.


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