I kind of hate to admit this, but this is kind of a confession. A coffee confession/boring rant/weird, rambling introspection inside.
Posted by
con_carne
May 21 '09, 08:47
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Coffee makes me happy. Which is OK, but today I felt I *needed* it. Much more than usual, I mean. I don't like that.
I woke up this morning and, while not particularly tired, I felt like crap because I knew I had crap and drudgery to deal with at work. We all deal with this right? (I will stop short of calling it depression). Then, I did something I never do: I decided I was going to get coffee *before* beginning my commute (usually I wait till I get to work to make company coffee).
The bad part is, I decided it might be a good idea to make my coffee at home every morning. I don't like feeling like I need this drug. But, I have decided this is what I will do. Not only does it make me feel better sometimes, but I feel it might help me a lot through this portion of my life: biding my time in a job I hate, while I study in a new career field, hopefully to find a new low-level job when the economy improves. (Plus other stuff is going on in my life).
I also thought of the notion that sometimes "little changes" in one's life make a big difference. This new caffeine intake is not what I consider a "little change," because I am not seeing it as positive. It's a drug. What other "little positive changes" could I make in my life? (I am a big creature of habit)
I know the heavier coffee drinkers would roll their eyes at this.
I feel better now. *drinks more coffee*
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