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ST Vulnerability Check: when was the last time you had an ugly cry?

for me, it was saturday night. i had a really relaxing, isolated (in a good way break), came back.. everything happened, life came in hard, work started up, family is being worse than ever.. i could feel myself holding back tears a lot. i burned the FUCK out of my thumb on a 550 degree pan on saturday night (i have a picture, wanna see?) and started freaking out at my partner who doesn't just take shit and started hollering back at me... and then i sat on the couch and started sobbing. she came and held on to me and it was like 45 minutes of just heaving sobbing.

i'm really thankful that i feel okay doing that with her.. it's been a lot of years of crying in private. and i'm glad i was able to just get that out. i still don't feel much better, but i feel like it helped me feel like i was human, that i wasn't just watching misery and violence and taking it in stride.. it does effect me deeply. it was a lot of everything piling up and me not taking time to acknowledge it and react to it.

i know a lot of folks here have been going through utter hell in the past week for a lot of reasons... take some time to cry if you haven't.


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