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In response to
"Editorial monologue, and request for advice. "
by
landbeck
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Other people here are cruise experts but I will say this
Posted by
ty97
Oct 1 '24, 09:42
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"But every day, every single day, I want so desperately to have my kids back. Right now, I want to hug them, get them a snack, hear about their day. Their plans. Having lost Maxwell and Suzanna makes this "want" even more desperate, but almost immediately I fret that I am over-focused on missing them, so will miss some detail on the other four that are still here now, and I worry about being uneven by accident or through the raging infinite gravity of grief.
Then I scold myself, because it's nearly toxic to be the person who is trying to keep score and be equal in how they treat everybody,"
Everything about this seems absolutely natural, and it emphasizes just how much of a loving father, husband, and person you are. You care so much about being good to the people around you that it almost paralyzes you at times. Embrace that goodness, don't scold yourself for your grief or for trying to love everyone the best you can. If you feel you are getting off-track, yes remind yourself of what you are trying to focus on at the moment, but do it in a self-encouraging way, not as a scold.
Because having known you for so long, we know what a wonderful, loving person you are, and I hate to see you doubt and question yourself.
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