NaNoWriMo Day18. Total words now: 34,195... I really see the plot going past 50,000 though.
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Qale (aka Qale)
Nov 18 '09, 13:59
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Sunday, June 1, 2009
1:56PM
Kitty,
Early this morning mom and I went to pick up Trix to take him with us to church. It took a long time for me to explain how the church that we go to is very different from the other ones maybe he think about. The lessons are always positive and the preacher does not get all crazy like the people at shit place.
The lesson was on forgiveness today. I think it's a hard thing to do. I know I have a hard time with it. I think of Kalki sometimes and what happened before he left. I remember reading on his computer that he wanted to say he was sorry, but he didn't. Does that mean I cannot forgive him yet? Do I really want to?
Sometimes it seems like its easier to move on and forget. But that may not be right either. I really should have asked the preacher after when he was shaking hands and talking, but mom said we had to come right home to check the crock pot.
The crock pot is where she cooks the roast beef stew for a long long time. By the time we got back to the house, everything smelled so good! It was ready too so Trix stayed for lunch and ate with us.
He asked, "Do you want to go to Heaven."
"Everyone wants to go to heaven, Adam," mom said while she was spread butter on rolls and putting them into the oven.
I laughed, "He means the skatepark, mom!" Trix started to laugh too.
"I think it's great you're starting to call Mrs. Helaku mom now. I remember when it was Lynne this and Lynne that. I never could call my mom by her first name!" Trix seemed surprise. He helped me clear the table. I still had a lot of summer project work I was doing.
"Well she is my momma now. I was reminded of that very strongly and I am not letting anyone say anything different." I pulled one of the chairs closer to mine so Trix and I could sit next to each other.
Mom put all the food on the table, I got the plates and forks. "Well, I know why we call you Skittles, though I prefer Mishka, of course." Lynne sat down first and served the food. She looked at my new boyfriend and smiled, "But why do they call you Trix?"
"Kalki started it." Trix answered. He sat down after putting the glasses of sweet tea down. I love love love sweet tea. It may be the best thing about being in this city, Kitty.
I could not help but be ugly though, "KK started it as an insult. He was afraid you were better and thought it was a bad name to give you."
Trix shrugged and started to eat. I shrugged as well and did too.
"Hey! Blessing Mishka. Say the blessing and then I got to check on the rolls." Mom reached across the table and tapped my hand. It wasn't a slap or anything. I smiled.
"Thank you God for this food and for my momma being better than any foster parents ever. Thank you for my boyfriend Trix, um, Adam." He looked up at me and I giggled before bow my head again. "Thank you for our friends and our health. Um. Please watch out for Kalki wherever he is skating. Amen."
"Very good." Trix said and reached over to rub my shoulder. He's so sweet.
Mom got up and brought the rolls over to the table too. "Kalki is on his way to Los Angeles, he said. Got sixth place on his last stop." She sounded really proud, but also a bit worry. "He hasn't called you?"
I stopped chewing on a big potato and shook my head no without saying anything.
"Oh. Well..." Mom sounded embarassed and maybe sad.
I was glad that Trix took over for me, "He's probably really busy on tour. We skate like crazy at Heaven is a Half-pipe and time just flys by. I can't imagine what it's like to also have to travel and deal with all the people."
Forgiveness. That's what I was suppose to learn about today and then I sit there at lunch and only feel bad things about KK and how it ended. But then I have sitting next to me Trix and I'm getting to like him so much.
Yesterday we didn't go to the skatepark at all because it was raining all day. Thunder and lightning too. It was real bad. So Trix came over and watched two movies. The first one was Hotel For Dogs. I hate dogs. They are so loud and bother people. Trix loves dogs. So we are opposite. That's okay. While he watch the movie, I lay my head in his lap and read more chapter of my summer reading books. I am almost ready for fall and my test to get into the honor class.
The second movie was SCARY! I could not pay attention to my book then and had to sit up and watch it with him. It was called My Bloody Valentine. People were running around getting kill. It was not a romantic movie because it has the word 'bloody' in it. I didn't like it and I think it was too much for Trix too. He hugged me tight and hid in my arm a few times. I don't know why he got a R movie that was scary. Next time, we should get a love story.
Our love story is very nice. After the movie, I got up and walked him to the door. He dropped his skateboard to the ground and put a foot on it because he was going to go but I stop him. I put my arms around him and squeeze hard! Trix laughed, but I kissed him.
I think he didn't know how to kiss well because he was kinda scared. He pushed his lips out some, and I licked them. I hear him squeak? But then I get to kiss him deep like French kiss. And he tongue kisses me back for a minute.
My heartbeat was so fast and I wanted to bring him back inside out of the rain and have sex for second time, but mom was home. And he said he had to go home too since it was near dark. More dark because of the storms.
"Be careful." I said.
"I will." He bow his head a little. I think he is shy sometimes even though we are together now.
I let go of his small body, and he kicked his foot to get the skateboard going. For fun, I chase him and pat his butt! He laughed and waved before turning sideway on the board and curving down the rest of our big hill.
So it has been a good weekend so far. He invite me after lunch to skatepark and I said I really need to write this first. So he went and lay down on the couch while I write in you, Kitty. I think I will go wake him up with a kiss if mom is still in her room. Maybe I will sneak my hand down his pants again. It would be nice and fun to be close to him intimate again.
We will be going together as boyfriends to Heaven is Half-pipe today and that's important. I hope Jackie if she is there understand that this is just the way things are. I don't want any more fighting.
I already have too much problems with the lawsuit and Michael and Stephanie. I forgot until just now I have to meet with them this week. They better not leave me alone with them, becaue if Michael says anything about my being gay I will punch him in the nose!
They'll see my rainbow hair and they'll see me happy about how things are now with Kalki that they can't have me back.
I wrote Kalki. Shit! I mean Trix. How could I write that? I feel really bad now. I scribbled it out but I should go wake Trix up and kiss him now. Before I think too much more about it.
Sorry about that, Kitty.
SKITTLES
Hello there Kitty. This is Adam. I think it's cute that Mishka brings you everywhere in his messenger bag. You are right next to a copy of a book called Owl in Love. That has Kalki's name in it, so I guess it used to be his?
I shouldn't be nosy, but I skinned my knee in a wipeout and while I am taking a break waiting for the bleeding to stop, I thought I'd look at what was being written about me in here. All good stuff apparently!
Mishka went to the restroom so the coast was clear for me to snoop. I'm glad I did. He doesn't know yet that he really should tell me anything that is bothering him. It's okay he still has feelings for Kalki. I think The Blue Ghost is an awesome skater but was hurting inside in a way that no one understands and so they can't really help. Not even you Mishka.
Forgive yourself first.
Until next time, I am Adam Ambrose, but you can call me Trix.
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